One thing that I think will make a huge difference with these specialty cycles (strength, endurance, and so on) is the food. I really need to crack down on my diet and get my paleo halo back on. I’ve been good about 85% of the time, but I know I eat way more than I should. Gluten and sugar are still very rarely consumed, so there’s that. Only dairy I’ll do is Kerrygold butter to cook with, and maybe once every 2 months I’ll get a small container of cottage cheese. When I visit home I might treat myself at a family dinner or something like that, but for the most part, I do okay staying on the bandwagon.
But god, do I overeat.
A typical night’s dinner will include a piece of meat and salad with a protein shake. Then about an hour later, a piece of fruit, a Larabar, a spoon of almond butter, and maybe some trail mix. Then a handful of carrots or a bit of cottage cheese. Basically, I’ll eat until I hate myself. On a continual basis. It’s not like I starve myself during the day in some kind of extended IF or anything. Some days I’ll wait until noon to break the fast, but then it’s usually 2 eggs with protein, and something like a protein source, a fruit, and avocado for lunch. Normal eating. But once the sun goes down, I really have issues. I think having a roommate helps some. On nights where I’m staying alone, I definitely eat worse. I feel like it’s almost leaning into binges sometimes. REALLY not ok with that.
Part of me feels like it is a self-control thing. And it most likely is…just need to flex that muscle a little more often. But on occasions it feels like it is out of my control, which is a really scary feeling.
Eating improperly is probably messing with my performance, let alone my waistline. When I really crack down (like during the Lean Into Spring challenge), I am genuinely happy with how I feel and how I look as I lean out. What the hell is wrong with me so that this can’t be all the time? *grump*